Steven came home today. I missed him the week he was gone. We had a good talk tonight about all kinds of things. Here's hoping his week will be better. I get him til July 30th and then he'll be with his dad til the 15th of August. The 16th he'll be entering middle school. 6th grade. He's getting so big.
The conversations I have with Steven from time to time are rather depressing. A portrait of a person can stay the same in someone's mind over the years, even though a person has changed. But the perspective of past events get muddled and twisted.
One of my favorite quotes from Babylon 5: "There's your side, their side and the truth." Your side can be distorted by hindsight, their side can be distorted by their feelings. And the truth is the truth.
The truth is that my ex and I wouldn't have made it anyway. Yes my actions were deplorable and I could have handled things better, communicated more, etc. There's no sense going over it constantly. It's been 10 years. Why can't some people move past that? They have their own life, I have mine.
By my perspective, my life is a bit better than it used to be. I have a fantastic husband, own a home (or rather pay the mortgage on one), a good job and I have my wonderful son. My wonderful son that I have console when he comes home from his father's house because he feels that he's last in his father's attention. I know my son can exaggerate, but there is always a grain of truth in a story.
It's bedtime now, here's hoping that things are better in the morning.
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