I had started a diet before going on vacation. Big mistake. I couldn't keep on a schedule at all. So, I'm starting up again. Here's hoping I keep with it.

What is it with....

Me and the bikes I purchase? I got to work yesterday and Matt's been frantically trying to call me. Monday night, while my son was sleeping 10 feet away, someone broke into my garage and took Matt's tools and two of our bikes. One of them my brand new Schwinn cruiser bike. I loved that bike.

Now I am seriously looking for a different neighborhood to live in. Two break-ins within 5 years.... it's time to move. Now I have to find a way to sell my home and buy another one.

Weight Loss?

I'm wondering the best way for me to lose weight. I need to find something else. I have almost no will power when it comes to food or exercize. I can always find another reason to put it off, or to just not do it.

Hypnosis? Lap-Band? Acupuncture? I just don't know.

Just as an FYI: my BMI is 45. It doesn't look it. And I don't see myself like that unless I look in a mirror or see a picture of me. And who thought of this BMI crap anyway? Never takes into account muscle or bone density. But I'm just making excuses.

Need to get a gym membership with a trainer. I need to do something. Any suggestions?

Crafts and stuff

Anyone who knows me knows I like to work with my hands. Gardening, crochet, cross stitch or even sewing.

I also have issues completing some things. I have 4 or 5 cross stitch projects that are currently unfinished. Some big, some small, all in various stages of completion. I love starting new cross stitch patterns. Wonder if I just get bored. I do complete smaller projects sooner. Or maybe deadlines are my issue. I need a reason to finish things. And just for my personal enjoyment isn't a good enough reason.

The only thing I seem to finish on a regular basis are books. I love books. I've even been thinking about an e-reader. Matt's is really nice. Not proprietary like the Kindle or the Nook. A nice little Sony. About the same size as a book. Fits in just about all my purses too. It can wait.....

My son is back!!!

Steven came home today. I missed him the week he was gone. We had a good talk tonight about all kinds of things. Here's hoping his week will be better. I get him til July 30th and then he'll be with his dad til the 15th of August. The 16th he'll be entering middle school. 6th grade. He's getting so big.

The conversations I have with Steven from time to time are rather depressing. A portrait of a person can stay the same in someone's mind over the years, even though a person has changed. But the perspective of past events get muddled and twisted.

One of my favorite quotes from Babylon 5: "There's your side, their side and the truth." Your side can be distorted by hindsight, their side can be distorted by their feelings. And the truth is the truth.

The truth is that my ex and I wouldn't have made it anyway. Yes my actions were deplorable and I could have handled things better, communicated more, etc. There's no sense going over it constantly. It's been 10 years. Why can't some people move past that? They have their own life, I have mine.

By my perspective, my life is a bit better than it used to be. I have a fantastic husband, own a home (or rather pay the mortgage on one), a good job and I have my wonderful son. My wonderful son that I have console when he comes home from his father's house because he feels that he's last in his father's attention. I know my son can exaggerate, but there is always a grain of truth in a story.

It's bedtime now, here's hoping that things are better in the morning.

I really should go to bed

I'm sure I'm going to get bored posting.

We've been spring cleaning in July. There's a reason for that. Going outside right now is painful. I hate the heat. When it's cold, I can layer more clothes. Doesn't work when the same when it's hot. I hate it when my skin is sticky. Spring cleaning meant cleaning up the yard. Not that I did a lot of that, planted a few things, pulled some weeds, didn't do nearly as much as I wanted to. Would need a LOT more money than I have right now. Last year's surgery put my yard on hold, catch up takes longer than I thought it might.

We have been getting rid of a lot of clutter. Trying to streamline life. We have a lot more room around here than we have in the past. Just finished resetting the cords for the surround sound and got rid of one of those hideous Sauder bookshelves. We hung up the RockBand guitars and are able to put the drums in a corner. We seem to finish one corner and find 5 more to re-do.

Last bit of info: I liked Glee. Never thought I would.

Thoughts at Midnight

My step-dad is a Marine. He is one of the most awesome people I've ever known. He never makes a promise that he might not be able to keep. He's honest, thorough and likes to get things done the right way the first time. While he hasn't been in my life for as long as I would have liked, I feel honored for the time that I've spent with him.

The tenor of this post suggests that he isn't with us any longer. Sooo not the case. I'm probably hormonal and just thinking about Marines a lot since I've been watching LOTS of NCIS.

My mom once suggested to me that I should have been a Marine. She sited my inherent body strength and high pain threshold. And the fact that I like to shoot guns and blow things up (not that I get a chance to do it all that often). I've thought about the what ifs, who hasn't? I think I might have liked the Marines. Or some form of military service. However, if I had joined, I wouldn't have this wonderful family. My son, Matt and Loren would never have been in my life. Not to mention my step-dad.

To all the Marines out there who have given their service to their country and to protect us all: Semper Fi!

Virgin Post

This is my first blog setup and post. So I guess you could say that I've popped my cherry. Then again, if you count FaceBook, MySpace or LJ, then I guess I've been around the block a bit. But I'm thinking I want to add a few more things here than I do at FaceBook. I'm leaving this open to all rather than the restrictions I have on my other pages. I'll be posting about all kinds of things, might even post from my phone, once I figure out how to do it. Visit the links on my website, there's more info there as well.

In the meantime: TESTIFY!!!!